Passing fancies...

Move forward. Someone please start the damn engine.

There is something seriously wrong when the passion & conviction of my dear brothers and sisters in Christ scare me to death instead of inspire me.

What does it mean when God is to “teach me in His Timing” while these other sisters and brothers have already understood. How does Time work? How soon is soon?

I’m at a point where this anxiety is grilling me to “give up”. Drop everything and run. It is difficult to even be present at Church on Sundays and at General meetings.

Sure all I really have to do is repent since God’s mercies are renewed everyday and he forgives. You know? Keep my focus on Jesus and allow the Holy Spirit to work within me?

But my heart won’t give and my mouth won’t budge. My conscience is frozen in paralysis.

And once again, I begin to find a craving for isolation.

Prone to pressure, anxiety, and attacks in general.

Everything is so complicated because our human perspectives are tainted, skewed, and distorted. Never forget the Vision.

pq q tem q ser assim?

Loneliness is so attractive tonight.

I feel like way too much already happened this week and it’s not even over yet.

a incerteza do futuro me mata.

Will your grace run out, If I let you down?
‘Cause all I know is how to run.

‘Cause I am a sinner
If it’s not one thing its another
Caught up in words, tangled in lies
You are a Savior
And you take brokenness aside
And make it beautiful
Beautiful

Will you call me child, when I tell you lies?
‘Cause all I know is how to cry.

I am a sinner
If it’s not one thing its another
Caught up in words, tangled in lies
You are a Savior
And you take brokenness aside
And make it beautiful
Beautiful

All Sons & Daughters

I apparently enjoy allowing sin to marinate my soul.